Bump in the road

I love this quote! And it has really helped me stay positive the last week. On August 30 I found out I was pregnant. I couldn't have been happier. Brendan and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost a year and we've been trying to be patient but every month that went by that we weren't pregnant was really hard. So you can imagine how excited we were when we found out we were expecting our first baby. Last Thursday (September 20th) was our first appointment. At the last minute Brendan was able to switch his schedule and come with me. We were both really excited but nervous at the same time. Since the day we found out we were pregnant I had this little doubt in the back of my mind that something just felt off. I don't know how to explain it or why I felt this way but I always felt a little "different." When we got to Dr. Farley's office we went back with the nurse and they asked us all sorts of questions and then Dr. Farley came in to chat with us. I've been really good at tracking things and they figured I was about 8 weeks along. Dr. Farley took us into the ultrasound room to listen to the baby's heartbeat. He had a hard time seeing anything on the monitor and he seemed really concerned about it. He kept pausing and looking at one spot of the screen, after what seemed like an eternity he finally turned to us and said, "I can't find a heartbeat." Instantly my mind started going 100 miles a minuter. I was thinking to myself what does that mean? Why can't he see anything? At that moment his nurse stepped out of the room and I just knew that something wasn't right. Dr. Farley explained to us that with how far along I was there should have been a heartbeat and then he said the thing I was dreading the most... "You've miscarried." I was devestated (even talking about it now makes me bawl)I wanted this baby SO much and now it was just gone. No notice, no warning, nothing. I think I sat there in a daze as Dr. Fraley explained things to me. I think I held things together pretty good as he explained things but the second I looked at Brendan and saw how upset and sad he was I just lost it. Dr. Farley sat with us and cried with us. He was so comforting and sweet. It felt like I was sitting there with a Bishop or an Uncle. Both Brendan and I took the news pretty hard. How do you handle something like that? No one had ever prepared me for something like this. What do I do now? The first thing I did when we left the doctors office was call my Mom. I explained what happened and asked her to call my Dad and Sisters and Brother. I just wasn't in the mood to explain everything to everyone. Everyone has been really sweet and so understanding. I think the thing that helped me the most was talking to my sisters, I think sometimes all you really need is your sisters. I am so grateful for the relationship I have with my family and that I can go to any of them for anything. My sister Jacee just listened to me cry and didn't try telling me it would all be ok. I can never put into words how very grateful I am for my family. I never bled out on my own so yesterday I went to the hospital to have a D&C, its a very quick in and out thing. But they have to put you under during it so you're pretty much wiped out for the rest of the day. I went in at 6:45am and was able to go home at 9:30. Brendan was able to get the day off and went with me. He has been so sweet and has worried about me through this whole thing. He has been the person that I have cried on the most and he is the only person that knows exactly how I feel. I am so grateful to Heavenly Father for bringing him into my life and for being able to spend eternity with such an amazing man. If its one thing I have learned from this, it's that Heavenly Father won't ever give you anything you can't handle. He truly knows how much we can handle and I am so grateful that I am sealed to my husband for eternity. I know that this is just a bump in the road and that we will someday have a baby. I look at other people and realize how blessed I am that I am still here and I know that there are people out there who are worse off. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family and a husband who would do anything for me. I love my family so much and feel so blessed to have them for eternity.

So it's only been a year since I have done anything with our blog. I could use the excuse that I was busy, but honestly I just forgot about it! But now that my little sister is moving to Arizona I decided that I should be better about keeping up with this thing. Acutually she convinced me it would be a good way to keep up on what's going on in each other's lives. Everyone who knows me, knows that I am really close with my family. My sisters are my best friends and we love doing stuff together any chance we get. I have been having a really hard time since my sister told us that they were moving. I am sure going to miss her! We used to be very close when we were younger but as we got older we had our own friends and our own lives. Then when she got married this year we started doing more together and have gotten a lot closer. I will stop moping now!!! Here is just a little bit of what we've been up to this year... Sorry they are in random order!!

Kaitlin & Dustin's wedding Februdary 10, 2012

This is a way random picture but I just couldn't resist. This was the day before we took Mac to the groomer, he looks homeless!

My mother in-law graduated with her Associates at Weber State this year, we are so proud of her. She has worked so hard to get here!

Kaysville 4th of July parade. All the boys wanted a picture with the Avengers. From the left Rick, Dustin, Zack (random guys we don't know) and Brendan

Me & Paylen @ Boondocks for my birthday :) Love this little girl

Brendan tubing @ JordanElle

We went to Bear Lake for our family vacation @ the beginning of August. On the last day we decided to go on a tour of the Minnetonka cave with Jacee & Rick and the girls. It was so fun! Its 40 degrees in the cave year round. There were a total of 888 stairs that we had to walk up and down. There was one part the were 77 steep stairs, and when I mean steep I'm talking about straight up. The tour guides call it the Stairway to heaven, well I call it the stairway to hell because they were so steep! And little Paylen who is only 3 walked up them all by her self! Afterwards she said to Jacee "Mom! My bum hurts now!" Jacee: "That's your glutes are getting a good workout." Then Paylen turns to be and says "Guys my glutes hurt!!" It was seriously the funniest thing ever!!

Me, Paylen & Jacee waiting @ the caves

So this is the first picture I've put up of my niece Hadley. She was born November 27, 2011 and let me tell you, she is one big girl. But so stinking cute! Brendan calls her "Fat Baby," because of her little Pooh Bear gut. Anyway...there is a story behind the picture. The first day we were up at Bear Lake me and Jacee were setting up our campsite while my Mom & Dad went into town. Poor Paylen was STARVING and really bored, so Jacee gave her a book of stickers to play with. Well we didn't have any paper to give her so she decided to use Hadley as her canvas. She was COVERED in stickers. They were all over her face, arms, legs and stomach. I don't think she left a spot uncovered. Hadley was such a good sport. I just love that little girl I can't ger enough of her.

LONG overdue!

I am the worst at updating this thing. I told myself I would be better this year but hey we're only 3 months into the new year. Give a girl a break! Time just seems to have gotten away from me. Its flown by! There are SO many new things happening its hard to know where to start. But I've gotta start somewhere.
First off, we've moved!! Yep, that's right we're moving on, literally. We have been in our apartment a year and although its worked out of the last year we decided not to renew our contract. Instead we moved in with my mother in-law. We're hoping to buy a house at the end of the year and this way we're able to save quite a bit of money and pay off quite a bit. Even Brendan's car...YAY!

For Christmas, Jacee found a package deal for Jazz tickets. It was a awesome deal $70for 6 tickets/3 games. Our first game was in January and our last one was this month :( I was so sad for it to end but we had such a good time. I wasn't able to get very many pictures, since my camera charger went missing (aka I lost it!) but luckily I found it in the move. Recently my family has taken a liking to Just Dance 2, its the best game ever and it makes you sweat like crazy! Brendan has even loved playing it and he gets pretty into it. You never know they may just use him as a dancer in Just Dance 3!!!

Brendan started his new job at t-mobile and likes it a lot so far! Its been kinda weird going from a 9-5 job to retail hours, but he is getting used to that schedule and I think he prefers it now. He is still working at Sam's part time as a cashier. In May his summer Lacrosse league starts up which he is really excited for and the new semester of school. We love this time of year and are getting so excited for Summer, some of our favorite things happen in summer....what we're looking forward to...Lake Powell trip, my birthday (of course), Samson family reunion and of course our favorite thing...BOATING!!

Its not much but here are a few pictures of what we've been up to so far this year...enjoy!!

tad set back...

Brendan keeps telling me I need to update our job and need to put up more updated pictures. Well it seems that I have lost my camera charger...so until my sweet, cute hubby gets me a new one, there won't be pictures for awhile. BUT because I have the BEST HUBBY in the world I will be getting one soon :) Promise I will put lots of fun pictures from Christmas and etc...Until then my friends!! ;)

Goodbye Summer...HELLO FALL!!

Although Fall is our favorite time of the year, we are still sad to say goodbye to summer :( We miss the vacations, boating, warm summer nights and most of all the WARM weather! We kicked the fall off with Brendan's birthday, always a big event. He turned 23 this year, he sure is getting up there ;) Since his birthday was on Wednesday and he has school ALL day we decided to celebrate it with our families on Tuesday. Famous Dave's was doing a SUPER sweet deal, if your name is Dave then you get a free meal and if your middle name is Dave (or David in Brendan's case) you get your meal for half price. So of course we decided to go there, it was pretty awesome because my father in law got his meal for FREE too!! They even had them wear little name tags that said, "Hello. My Name is DAVE. Ha I loved it!

We hadn't been there in awhile so we were way excited and their barbecue is SO yummy. Brendan got the ribs and I got the 2 meat meal, chicken and wings. It was so good. Geeze all this talk about food is making me hungry! :) Anyway, since we weren't sure if we would be able to do cake and ice cream that night we just decided to open presents there. My parents gave him a really nice back pack, which he really needed for school and some fun things inside it. His parents gave him some money, which it ALWAYS nice. I figure that way you can buy what you want and not have to worry about exchanging it or a different size etc... As for my presents I did it in two parts, I had a present for him to open with everyone, then one for just the two of us. The one with everyone was a movie he has really been wanting; Clash of the Titans, some cologne and Hi Chew candy. (its a Hawaii treat, sort of and Brendan LOVES it)

PART 2 of Brendan's birthday. He had school that morning until 12:30 and conveintly (or however you spell it) I had a work meeting, so it worked out nice. After we both got done with our things, I picked Brendan up at school and we went to lunch as Chili's, one of his favorites. After lunch we went to the mall, Brendan wanted to buy a few shirts with the money from his parents. Aeropostale was having a sale so he was able to get some nice ones for pretty cheap. He had quite a bit left over, so he decided he wanted to get some protein stuff from GNC. Then being the wonderful hubby that he is, he let me drag him through Quilted Bear for an hour. He was such a trooper!!

After our little trip to the mall I took him back to school and got ready for our BIG night. I found this really cute gift idea from one of my FAVORITE websites. I am pretty much addicted to it. You can find the gift idea here http://thedahlingdatingdivas.blogspot.com/2010/07/five-senses-gift.html I decided to go the extra mile and get chocolate covered strawberries from Zupas Cafe and I got rose petals and made a trail from the door just outside our bedroom leading to the bed with his 5 senses gift. I really loved this gift idea. And it was super easy, you take each of the 5 senses; touch, taste, smell, sound and sight. Then you get a gift with each one. Then you print off cute tags with sayings, I got those from the dating divas website, they were super cute and were all made up which made it a quick project for me. After I finished with the gift I put it in a cute bag and placed it right in the middle of the bed. It was probably the funnest project I have done yet!

























And this is how it turned out! Once again you can find this SUPER cute idea and TONS more here http://thedahlingdatingdivas.blogspot.com/2010/07/five-senses-gift.html







He found THIS trail of rose petals leading to a surprise!
















And WAH-LA this is what he found! :)

DaTe TiMe!

The title says it all!! So me and Brendan are now on a student budget...I know know the wonders of being Newlyweds :) Anyway we are having to get creative with our dates and keep them pretty cheap. Well this date that we just had wasn't as cheap but it was SUPER fun! Brendan had to work Saturday day, so I went boating with my famila at Willard Bay. Which was WAY fun. After Brendan got off work we went down to Salt Lake and met up with Jacee and Rick. First we went to eat at the Lion Pantry which was way yummy. Can you believe that I've never been there? I even worked at the Joseph Smith Building and have never been. CRAZY!

After, we went over to the Beehive House (the place where Brigham Young lived with his family). It was SO neat to be there, I wish I would have taken pictures but I totally forgot. And needless to say, that place was HUGE, I can't even remember how many different floors there were. It was so cool!

Next we headed over to the Visitor's Center since non of us have been there for awhile! It was pretty neat, they added a new exhibit. That has an exact replica of the Salt Lake Temple and it shows the different rooms and floors. It was WAY cool because a lot of those rooms I have never been in. LOVED IT!! We only got a few pictures while we were there. I wish we had more.

Anyway, we have been trying to keep our dates cheap and creative. I found this way fun blog that has those exact things. Its mainly for married people which I love. It has all sorts of tips and advice for married couples on keeping their marriage HOT! ;) Check it out, you'll LOVE it! http://thedahlingdatingdivas.blogspot.com

*Paylen LOVES her Uncle Brendan*

Catch Up

I am not very good at this blogging stuff so I am having to play catch up right now. We have been VERY busy these last few months. Brendan has been working at Sam's the last few months and just got a promotion to Marketing, he is way excited!! He starts school in August and is doing the respiritory program, it is a lot of work but we are so excited. I am still working at REED EyeCare in Farr West and I LOVE it. I am just finishing up my Optician training and will hopefully have my license soon. I just have to take a test when I am done...We love the summer months but this summer has been a little slow for us, we have both been working SO much that we haven't had a lot of time for fun.
Here are some pictures of some of the things we've been doing the last little while. Enjoy!

Baby Animal Farm-May 2010








Sharing a milk shake at Good Wood


Living Planet Aquarium










Lake Powell June 2010

You can't tell but we are standing on that cliff







Our Cute little Apartment :)